"How is it no one sees how deeply afraid we were, last night, this morning? Is it something we all hide from each other, by mutual consent? Or do we share the same secret without knowing it? Wear the same disguise?”
— White Noise, Don DeLillo
When you and I thought things goes smoothly, well unfortunately, it’s just the other way around. I wear the same disguise…
I need that thing I can truly appreciate and embrace, making my days more positive or at the very least, less of a drudgery.
I know that those things can be the source of all our gripes, conversely, it can also bring us gratification, fulfillment, and dare I even say it—happiness. I don’t have to kill myself just to seek for that happiness, it is given when you do love what you’re doing.
Right now, I hafto let go and wait for the right opportunity. Whatever happens, I’m solely in charge of my life and most importantly, my future.
It’s overwhelming to know, they believe in me, I just don’t believe in myself. Courage where are you, hmmm. How I wish I was a kiddo again, full of courage haha. :)